Scrolling through pictures on our phones and I'm seeing a lot of snow, a lot of dark/twilight, and also, food. Despite the fact that it's the middle of February and the fact that the snow is still coming down, I'm not nearly as bothered by the winter this year as I was last year - basically I'm saying that the Polar Vortex of 2014 saved every subsequent winter for me. I'm not hard to please; just give me temperatures that stay above -35, which this year thankfully, they have. Plus I just can't help but gush about that silent feeling that comes over your house when there's a good snowfall going on outside. We had another night like that last night and I felt like we were in our own igloo, sheltered away with no where to be but home.
I'm really happy right now. I have that feeling I used to get when I was 10 - the one that made me starfish fall backwards onto my bed in an exhale of no worries, no huge plans and no high stakes. Maybe that's a bit ironic because I would have thought the worries would be through the roof considering we've never done this parent thing before.... but maybe it's because we got it out of the way in that crazy condensed week of worry we had back in January, or maybe because we have NO idea what's in store for us (because ignorance is bliss) either way, I can't but help chisel it out in time; life feels so good right now. Despite the dryer not really drying and the car that doesn't blow warm air unless you're going over 60km/hour - I just find myself sitting in a rosy glow of expectation for Spring and flowers and new company come June.