I don't really remember accurately what 32 weeks felt like last time around and i'm hitting myself because I have done a pretty bad job of capturing a play-by-play of both pregnancies! I seem to lose the creative urge when I'm in the early stages of pregnancy and only seem to pick it up again in the third trimester. oh hormones. the things you do to my brain! I do know for sure that at this stage with June I was still working.... and of course I didn't have a toddler running around behind the scenes so I imagine it was a quite a bit different ;) This time around I have fewer people saying things to me like "woah, how many do you have in there" which I felt like I heard continually when I was pregnant with June - for sure around this point - so maybe I'm carrying differently with this little baby? Either way, this baby is already his or her own little person - he or she is driving me to new lengths and we've done a lot of growing together <3 I'm so grateful for what pregnancy and being a mother has done to my heart.
I'm feeling increasingly frantic that baby will be here before we know it! In my head I know that it will happen in the Spring, when the flowers are out; but my garden is still covered in a huge mound of snow so it's been a bit deceiving and has been making me think it's farther away then it really is. When I realized I'll officially be full-term in five short weeks (!!!) things started to feel bittersweet. i actually really enjoy being pregnant this time around (not that I didn't enjoy it with june but this time i feel like i've truly embraced it ... if that makes any sense at all) and that part of me isn't ready to let go of this time we've been having together. The other part of me is craving the sorts of movements you can only tackle when you aren't attached to another 5 lb human 24/7 (why do I drop everything? everything!!). I'm going to miss June's face when she talks to my belly and wrapping my hands around my stomach when I'm laying on my side at night. But I know all those things will soon be replaced by holding my newborn on my chest and having June stare and hold the tiny fingers and toes; and honestly I'm so anxious to finally meet this person who I am pretty sure is a boy (85%)! Mike keeps reminding me "now it COULD be a girl you know. I don't want you to be disappointed!" But it's not about being disappointed, I will just be completely surprised! And I do love a good surprise <3 I can't even say for what particular reason I feel like this baby is a boy, but it's just a feeling i developed along the way and haven't been able to shake. Either way, healthy healthy is what I'm spending my time praying for.
In between eating a million apples (literally can't have enough!) We set the crib up on the weekend (and omgosh don't even ASK us how long it took. Way too long. That's all I will say about that otherwise mike will likely ask me to stop blogging) but I can't believe there's going to be a little person in there so soon! I'm working on getting a few pieces of furniture refinished so that I can rearrange both June's room and our room which will be "the nursery" for the first few months. For now the crib and change table are sitting in the corner of our bedroom and I feel better just knowing we've ticked a few items off our to-do list. i know that babies don't "need" all of these things so i'll blame it on my nesting hormones which are in full and powerful bloom.